Wednesday, June 30, 2010


Hi there.

So athletics carnival today = good. I ate 3 apples again, and tea. Left my water bottle at E's though so I'll have to get a new one. I am so sick of APPLES. My god. Anyway they are my safe food.
Now.. I ate three apples and did a few athletical events, um so that is good, I am still going to L's tonight though so I'll have to eat. Beh. And hmm yes all in all should be ok, Friday I should be able to miss dinner, Saturday I'll be working all day and pretend to have eaten there. Cool. So. All's well I suppose.

Farewell ladies. Or lady as it were :p

Oh and I think I'm around 69.2kgs now (how embarresment) so that's down about 2kgs. Cool.


3 apples
1 small roll with egg.
Lots of tea and water. That's quite good, all things considered.
I went to E's, they had nachos, doritos, potato cakes and chips, andd chocolate. Bam I ate an apple. I do get angry a lot easier when restricting though. So I got grumpy with him a bit. Anywho.

So that went well, now tomorrow is the athletics carnival at school. Contrary to popular belief this isn't a good thing. Hmm. I'll just have apples, watevs.

So.. I'll be back on Saturday. Oh wait I'm coming home tomorrow afternoon before going to my friends house. Cool. Anyway. Byes.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010


A good day is good.

1 cup of my mother's "diet soup". Basically tomato and cabbage with stock in water
2 apples
About 1.5 cups of rice and vege stir fry.

Hmm cool.

Now tomorrow I'm going to E's, Thursday I'm going to another friends and Friday I'm staying at E's grandmas. Tricky.. tricky..
Maybe I'll be like Lucy and try Cassie's way. Hum dee dum. It'll be fine. I do have to focus on avoiding the maccas, damn where I work. You know they have malteasers in Sundaes now? So easy to steal them. Anyway better make a plan;

Tea for breakfast, apple for recess&lunch, and a quater of a sandwich... now dinner will be at E's, I'm vego and they all <3 meat so I'll probably end up with some salad or carrots.. or pasta. Let's try and avoid pasta.

Tea, apples, then L's house.. hmm.. my cat is so cute. Anyway. L's house. Usually her father buys some tofu when I come over, then fries the tofu and gives it to me. Pretty gross but not very fatty. Though I have voiced my distaste for this dish to L. We'll see. I'll manage.

Probably will have to eat a decent breakfast.. fruit for recess and sandwhich for lunch then dinner should be easily avoidable. The problem will be control. For the whole time I'm working at maccas I'll have access to free coke zero though, which I'll have to train myself to like.

I'm working 9-5... I'll have to eat something. Avoid binge avoid binge avoid binge. Ok I am not allowed to buy maccas. I'm going to bring a whole lot of apples and nuts. K. She'll be right. Then I'm working 6am-2pm Sunday. Around maccas so much.. beh. Ok I'm saving money like a bitch so I could just not bring my wallet then.. BAM no maccas. Yeah I'll do that. Ok.. I'll have to just have some apples.

Well this post has been long and boring but I have sorted my head out somewhat.


Monday, June 28, 2010

We're meant to be seen and not to be understood.

So today I went to school. It was all cool at school.

Did I mention my mother is ginving me $10 for every kilo I lose. Woooohoo.

But anyway bleh. Well I am not motivated enough right now at this second, today went ok, I ate my apples and had my water. And one of my apples was crap so I actually only had one.. Dinner was more than planned though. Healthy 'good fats' though.. but I didn't feel particularly conflicted about it. Although I do feel completely disgusting with this food in me now.... I'm considering going and having a cold shower and throwing up. Cold showers sure are getting a lot of attention lately. But I won't do that. Because I'm not motivated enough to make myself colder than I already am. Which is very cold. So cold.

So some more motivational list.
Food hates me.
It goes all up in my belly and makes me feel like shit.
Tea is yum.
Water is awesome.
I'm fat and ugly.
Mainly fat.
And oily.
I work at maccas. Only thin people can work at maccas without being shit (new rule)
Food costs money, and I have to save for London, and the cruise.
If I am to go on said cruise it will be 10 days of living in swimmers... 6 months to go.
I have a gym membership and its running out and costing money.
Everyone judges me for being lazy/eating.

So. That didn't really work. If anyone knows where I can read 'wasted' online I would be eternally grateful and possibly repay you in sexual favours, I don't believe I could own it in my home without causing suspision. WAIT MELBOURNE. I can buy it from Melbourne and just hide it. Excellent. See otherwise I would have to buy it off the internet and the package arriving for me would be questioned.

Now that I've effectivly avoided all subjects for an entire lengthy posts, I bid you farewell.

Ha! rereading that list in preview did work and I am now off for my shower. Take that you ricey ricey carbs.

Sunday, June 27, 2010


-brushes over absence with excuses of homework and what not-

No breakfast - water
Apple for recess - water
Apple for lunch - water
Apple after school - water
Fuck dinner right up the bum. Maybe soup. Or an apple - water.

With water in between. And the gym. Ze gym. Gym. gyyyym.

I am going to Melbourne in 10 days.
My formal is this year.
It will make my skin look awesome.
Fat people suck balls. Chocolate salty balls.

Bye guys.